Divine Feminine Studies

For a number of years now I am not sure how I fell down this rabbit hole, it really started in my twenties with my friend and roommate Tonya in the old house in Grant Park in Atlanta, GA, when we started reading things like “Women Who Run With the Wolves”, by Clarissa Pinkola Estes, and listening to Ani DiFranco. I started studying divine feminine aesthetic around that time. Not as a practice of religion so much, but more of an earth study. This might offend some people, but as a previous atheist, it was just hard for me to believe that the creator of all things could be male. Female made more sense to me, and then I started studying how before Christianity, there were many pagan worships that were based on female deities. Which later they called them all witches, and when Christianity came to sweep the world, those ancient cultures and religions were wiped out and people were killed and burned.

Since my personal journey of discovery, that started before I got cancer, yes I have been battling cancer for about a year and a half, read previous blogs to find out more about that, but my point is when I became critically ill, or found out pretty suddenly, I needed something to hold on to again, because it’s damn near impossible to go through cancer, or life in general, on one’s own is what I found without some sense of a creator, and so my studies grew stronger. Actually now that I think about it, what really pushed me to reconnect with the divine feminine is when my best friend, Tami and her daughter died in a house fire in 2014, and that brought me to my knees, and on my knees is where I found the divine feminine energy. I have had many meditations where I see myself in a golden temple, so beautiful, it would bring you to your knees, there is grace in grief.

My friend Kay and I started an FB group online in 2016, called Divine Feminine (Sacred Energy) long before I got sick to focus on the sacred energy of the divine feminine and I began my meditation journey probably about that time.

I did holotropic breath work too, and reiki with a trusted practitioner, which I continued to do and still do. My point is just it made more sense to me this sense of the divine feminine, although there is a masculine energy too, that’s where things got out of balance somewhere along the line, and I feel like with this focus on energy, I am helping the collective consciousness wake up and find the rebalance.

In my opinion, I think what happened is the divine feminine was buried, at some point, and then she started re-emerging, on a collective level. Now it’s time for her to come into her full power, and Momma Earth rumbles too, does she not? Don’t you hear her, in the earthquakes, and floods, and with the turning of the moon tides, she is there waiting for you. And the wisdom of the grandmothers and the wisdom of the crone, she also waits for you, patiently, gently touching your shoulder, saying wake up.